LVAGRL: issue 1

Last week I released the first issue of my newest zine called LVAGRL, and sold some copies at the Portland Zine Symposium, thanks to Amy for creating the new Signal Fire zine distro...!

The cover of LVAGRL, issue 1, a lil zine about attachment.

The cover of LVAGRL, issue 1, a lil zine about attachment.

Last winter I went through a sad breakup, and promptly, heartbreak. Processing this with friends & my therapist (I'm a big advocate of therapy!), I learned so much. I learned about how relationships with all different types of people are all different types of different. I learned about how getting my needs met means learning about my boundaries and what I am willing to do and not do. Most significantly, I learned about my attachment style and how my attachment style created certain patterns in my intimate relationships (both romantic and platonic).

An detail of a page in LVAGRL, issue 1.

An detail of a page in LVAGRL, issue 1.

This zine is an illustrated expression of my personal process of healing from heartbreak and learning about attachment. I really struggled justifying spending time on such specific and personal content. I had and am still working through a lot of shame around creating work that portrays such a personal process, when what I want to be working on is political art, and art that speaks to a larger socio-political context. I was putting too much pressure on making “political” work that I thought I needed to create, and wasn't making anything (and felt even worse/shameful).

Something happened and I busted through a barrier. I started accepting what I wanted to work on, started accepting my skill level & where I was at, and accepting the creative momentum that was happening… This process wasn't just about heartbreak, but also accepting my creative place and stepping into it. 

Pattern Play + Exploration !

Thanks to everyone who came out the Pattern Play + Exploration class on April 10th!

This class was so many good things: thought-provoking discussions unpacked what it means to be a pattern, as well as a pattern in nature. After getting to know each other and learn about pattern, we took a field trip to the beautiful McKenna Park and made some real life observations. We generated new ideas about patterns in nature, and had time to figure out what parts of these we can bring home to our own ways of creativity. It was a super engaging opportunity to take some time to develop our creative practices.

This was a cool space to be able to geek out on how patterns in nature work as individual patterns as well as how those patterns interact. We eventually talked about our own patterns of habit and brainstormed a list of ways we can shift our own patterns of habit for new inspiration!

Here are some highlights from that list:

1. Keep asking, “Why?” Don't settle for obvious answers. “Why?” is such a powerful question!

2. Shift scale of observation. Sometimes things don't make any sense until I zoom out to see the larger picture. Or, zooming in to see the details can bring new information to light.

3. Break your routine! Listen to different music to feel a different rhythm! One person talked about her love of commuting by bicycle, and taking a different route to work every single time. While commuting is often considered a boring but necessary activity, experiencing daily variations in something as routine as commuting can give us space for more spontaneity and joy.

4. Step into the shoes of others: empathize! Empathizing with others is a powerful method of shifting patterns if consciousness. Through empathizing, we can gain broader perspectives on life and develop new kinds of relationships that maybe were not possible before.

Thanks to Ellie at Klumhouse for hosting this workshop in her teaching studio! Would you like to attend this workshop, or host one like this at your school or organization? Contact me to get in touch!