LVAGRL: issue 1

Last week I released the first issue of my newest zine called LVAGRL, and sold some copies at the Portland Zine Symposium, thanks to Amy for creating the new Signal Fire zine distro...!

The cover of LVAGRL, issue 1, a lil zine about attachment.

The cover of LVAGRL, issue 1, a lil zine about attachment.

Last winter I went through a sad breakup, and promptly, heartbreak. Processing this with friends & my therapist (I'm a big advocate of therapy!), I learned so much. I learned about how relationships with all different types of people are all different types of different. I learned about how getting my needs met means learning about my boundaries and what I am willing to do and not do. Most significantly, I learned about my attachment style and how my attachment style created certain patterns in my intimate relationships (both romantic and platonic).

An detail of a page in LVAGRL, issue 1.

An detail of a page in LVAGRL, issue 1.

This zine is an illustrated expression of my personal process of healing from heartbreak and learning about attachment. I really struggled justifying spending time on such specific and personal content. I had and am still working through a lot of shame around creating work that portrays such a personal process, when what I want to be working on is political art, and art that speaks to a larger socio-political context. I was putting too much pressure on making “political” work that I thought I needed to create, and wasn't making anything (and felt even worse/shameful).

Something happened and I busted through a barrier. I started accepting what I wanted to work on, started accepting my skill level & where I was at, and accepting the creative momentum that was happening… This process wasn't just about heartbreak, but also accepting my creative place and stepping into it.